I’m normal about them if you ignore everything

What if I spent all my effort and my very life trying to protect you from any kind of harm, from hunger and heights to the people who want you dead because they fear you, and I spent so much time trying to keep you alive I forgot that I was a threat too. What if I was so good at taking care of you and defending you that the only way you could be harmed was by my own actions. What if I desperately pulled you through everything forgetting that one of us had to lose. What if my survival instincts were so strong that they could encompass you too while also dooming you to lose so I could survive. What if I noticed your every moment of carelessness and raged at you for not watching out, yet it was my carelessness that caught you. What if I spent so much time caring for you that you came to trust me so much that your own death still felt like a win to you, yet made me lose everything. What if

mmmnghfh.... ren as a sexy radio station host who has phone sex w callers on air and martyn who's a regular caller, and then one day martyn encounters ren and recognizes his voice and realizes rens actually super bashful in irl but manages to fuck him regardless

WAIT

Reblog this to have your mutuals describe what their first memory of you is

@calamity-collective @chaoticcha0s @k1kimiki @originallyandyy @orangejuiceatdawn @ilovecapjohnprice @chronophobiaclown

Man I don’t even know 😭😭 dog you were my first mutual

I think there was some long reblog chain that was literally just us talking about smth I don’t remember and you kept using gifs and i thought that was really cool 🙂‍↕️ ur such a cool moot

@autophobiastar @autopilotangel @bigbaldslut @bucket-of-axilotl @cloudyskiesandstarrynights @can-i-explode-now @callofwinter @cow-cutie @ghostie-blu @hi-imaflamingo @i-had-a-bad-feeling @kitab00m101 @kaeruutv @lunathetunaaa @magical-ethan @toadfree @theboybehindtheflowerspng @thelongferret @the-bug-carnival @yourlocalavian

Hopefully I got everyone :] no pressure <3

Hmmm… my first memory of you, Chrono…..

At SacAnime…. me and my friend were grabbing food by the food trucks… then I saw you and screamed JOEL 🫵

And then picture <3

Then I came over to Tumblr, found Auto and Blub, which led me to find you, then the rest is history :D

Omg wait I found the picture lol-

(Ik you’re fine with your face being shown I just didn’t wanna post it w/o your permission iykwim 😭🩷🥀)

Tagsss~

@lunathetunaaa @serendipitys-dragon @wynnbellamy @ghostie-blu @jellyfishizhere @no1likemickey @demigoddessofthetrees @birddoesstuff @p3skybirdd @sharinosaur @iicor @aussiebeth @mars2moons @moon-storm @lemoneblossom @autopilotangel @autophobiastar @kaeruutv @thelongferret @the-bug-carnival @theboybehindtheflowerspng @a-sucker-for-a-sucker-offical @callofwinter @opal-and-pumpkin @bucket-of-axilotl @con-the-kobold @callofwinter @wiltingtu1ips @kitab00m101 @pinkparrotwrites @silvertheindignantfox @hellohellohellohellohello3579 @aqxuastars @phoenixrainsfire413 @purrrrplecats @museyphobia @haboinga @nerd-alerts @skeletal-spire-man-aka-overfit @rusty-spooooooooon @maimaitheartist @beanzdabean +open tags (I still needs update my list euhdhdjwhshwj)

My memory is poor, but I think my 1st interaction with you was asking if you could make a banner for me :) 🩷 which I still use 🩷

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(I’m never sure which of my moots want to be tagged in this kind of stuff or not 😔)

My first memory of you was finding you via a post that invis reblogged, getting interested in your Brightest Star AU, scrolling the tag, thinking "this seems cool, I have to catch up on it when I'm not about to fall asleep" and returning several weeks later after having forgotten about it to read through the entire tag. For quite a while, Brightest Star was the only reason I was checking your posts, until I eventually ended up having too much time on my hands and reading other stuff you posted, which led to me keeping on checking your blog occasionally and ultimately supported my decision to make this blog. However, I didn't really become super interested in your writing or you as a person until shortly after I made this blog, tbh

Here's some old doodles from my lovely moot @archaicmetal of my Brightest Star au

OH MY GODDD THEY'RE SO PRETTYYY 🩵🩵🩵

this isn’t going how I wanted it to, so take the sketch

Being a writer means I get to torture those I hold dear.

It builds character!

Woman Rendog !

some moonrot kink scenario where cleo's like "if you're good you'll get rewarded and if you're bad you get punished" and pearl's like. ok got it! and behaves completely perfectly not a hair out of place just nailing everything she's told to do. after several sessions of this cleo's like "you know that you can misbehave sometimes right. this goes two ways you can participate however you choose" and pearl's like ohhhh okay. and starts playing mind games right back. getting creative and seeing how far she can take things. ends up with pearl treating sex like a minigame she has to uncover all the secrets of and actually stopping mid-scene to take notes while cleo sighs and realizes they may have a type

kiss them all and let them drown, creature from the deep LoveBitten NSFW

AO3 LINK

I know this has been done a million times, but I love painter x model AUs. Never beating the muse allegations...

Imagine it though. And yes, I'm making this about Scarian, sue me. But imagine Scar getting a new model as a reference for his art, only for it to be the prettiest human being he has ever seen. Golden hair, fair skin, dark, mysterious eyes that seem to be mischievous like a teenager's and pained like a woeful old man's at the same time. So he abandons his original idea and decides to paint Grian instead, because how could he not? And then he puts him in the sunlight to pose and, oh, he's done for. The way the light catches on his every feature, wrapping him in a soft light like the sun only shines to highlight his beauty... the way it dances across his body, every curve, rise and dip outlined... Scar is falling hard and fast, quite literally, he misses his chair when sitting down to create a first sketch.

And then it doesn't work. He simply doesn't possess the ability to portray Grian in a way that he deems worthy of him, and it gets even worse when he gets to the face. Bevause everything else, he can blame on struggling with the medium, the lighting, the pose, but being unable to get the features right, especially the eyes, which are one of the most captivating, unique features Grian has in his opinion, just won't do, and he has spend too much time and energy to abandon the project. So he goes by the theory of Amedeo Modigliani, deciding the key to "getting it right" is to get to know Grian, all of him, every thought, memory, and idea behind those eyes. All for the love of the craft, of course.

Imagine with me, established relationship. Scar going up to Grian like "I can’t get these curves on your body to look right, you think I could feel them to get a better idea of their shape?" And Grian obviously aware that that's not how it works but playing along anyway. And so Scar starts touching him, running his hands all over him, and Grian is expecting to be kissed and made out with roughly sooner or later, but instead, Scar slows down, taking the time to truly appreciate him. His fingers trace every little crevasse, every small part Grian is insecure about, and suddenly, it feels like he's touching his very soul, even though he is just admiring his body. Eventually, Scar sinks to the floor as he gets lower and lower, and by that point, Grian is so emotionally overwhelmed by his love that he's trying not to cry. And as Scar looks up at him with eyes full of warmth and adoration unlike any either of them ever knew, he breaks.

Scar would've taken it any direction Grian wanted, but when his darling starts crying, he starts comforting him, and they end up tangled up in eachother both physically and mentally on the floor of Scar's workshop. And it's not pretty, it's not sexy, and it's not artistically interesting, but raw and vulnerable, and a piece of Grian heals that day that despite being a model he somehow had always missed. To his surprise, Scar isn't astounded by this at all, he just says "I had a feeling".

The eyes do not get painted that day, or the rest of the face. But in a more simplistic and impressionistic style, Scar draws that scene, that moment he felt Grian let go and allow himself to be vulnerable, and he draws the way it felt, not just how it would've looked. And even though it's nowhere as professional or thought out as his other work, it becomes one of his favorite paintings he has ever done. Ten years later, it ends up finding a place on the wall of their shared bedroom, so they see it every morning, and that becomes the reason Scar keeps the door closed when they have guests over, because he wants to keep that memory and the beautiful work it inspired something only for them to look at and think about.